To tell the truth , i afraid what people think of me , i afraid that people will talk about me behind me . I hate that side of me . I hate that part of myself .
Thats why i don't really want people to know much about me , because i want to hid that side . I think its better for people to call me cold or wadever . But if people understand me and care about me , i really appreciated it , but that personality of mine can't go away that easily .