And then I found out how hard is to really change. Even hell can get comfy when you've settled in. I just wanted the numb inside me to leave. No matter how fucked you get, the sun will return and you come back down. The funny thing is, all I ever wanted I already had. There's glimpses of heaven in every day. In the friends that I have, the music I make, the love that I feel. I just had to start again.