"The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want."
When God takes something out of his reach, he is not punishing you but merely opening your hands to receive something better. Concentrate on this sentence ... "The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you."
And I feel as if you were falling behind, trying to just find my reasons and losing sense of what is real.
A voice, a Guitar and a Heart Worshipper. Worship the King Jesus.