Throughout my life, I've found this seductive feeling of homesickness or its opposite fernweh "far-sickness" - a desire to leave, both tsunamis of longing so great that either can overwhelm and paralyze my entire being.
"Now the Sirens have a still more fatal weapon than their song, namely their silence. And though admittedly such a thing never happened, it is still conceivable that someone might possibly have escaped from their singing; but from their silence certainly never." (F.Kafka)
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