She is so sick of never being stronger or better. She's sick of going home everyday and wishing she was someone else. For once she wants to look in the mirror and be happy for what she sees back. She's sick of everyone telling her 'You can do so much better than that'. Maybe she cant. And people talking behind her back. Yeah well. She found out. She's sick of people bringing her down and telling her that she isn't good enough. But i guess all she really wants, is to be more than second best :)