The document is a personal reflection by the author on their past addiction to coffee and the difficulties they had giving it up after joining the Mormon church. As a middle schooler, the author would drink 1-2 pots of coffee each morning for the energy boost it provided. They vividly describe the ritual and sensations of brewing and drinking a cup of coffee. After joining the Mormon church at age 13, which prohibits coffee, the author struggled through withdrawal symptoms like insomnia and cravings for months. Even over a decade later, they still feel temptation and longing when around the smell or taste of coffee.